As everyone knows, I have a lot going on in my life right now, and when another random responsibility arrives, the chances of me freaking out and crying go up by 10000000000000000%. Yesterday I was on the verge of tears all day because I had to do something for work and it turned out all wrong and then I yelled at my Dad on the phone even though he was only trying to help and then I told Caroline I couldn’t play Ticket to Ride for the millionth time and she said it was ok but I knew she was sad. It was just a bad day, and everything anyone did was making everything worse.
What finally made me feel better was sitting down and emailing my siblings on missions. Because Abby is coming home next week and Jonathan has just passed the year mark, I wanted to write them both really nice letters and make sure they knew that I was thinking of them. When I finally pulled out my computer and started writing and thinking about them and their needs, I felt SO much better. Pulling my head out of my own problems and thinking about how I could help other people made me realize how much I have to be grateful for. I should be so happy! I have a great life! I have an amazing family who would drop anything and come to my side if I needed it. I have Cob, the most perfect boyfriend/fiancé/friend in the world who puts up patiently with my incessant meltdowns and picky eatings and perfectionist tendencies. I have Cob’s family, who has taken me as their own and makes me feel like I have always belonged to them.
Most of all, I have the gospel. The light and truth to give me courage and confidence when I feel like everything is falling apart. The love of Jesus Christ to carry me through the bad emails and the bad friends and the bad days that never seem to end. I am so blessed in so many ways.
So here’s to a new day, full of life and light and HOPE.
Love, Rebecca
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